FrEaK-ShOw

i dunno... T_T

2005-05-25T03:06:00.000-07:00

never say " love you" if you really dont' care...

never talk about feelings if it isn't really there...

never touch a life if you only meant to break a heart!

never look into the eye when all you do is lie

never say "sorry" if you intend to hurt her again!

remember: the cruelest thing a guy could do to a girl

is to let her fall inlove when he doesn't intend

to catch her when she fall...

the more you want to forget,

the more you'll regret!

as time would heal the wounds and pains,

so does the world would soon be in vain...

simpleng buhay, simpleng mundo....

2005-05-13T02:15:00.000-07:00

hay, asa!

anu ba naman 'tong mga tao....tambay ako kanina sa may labas ng computer shop....

mainit, mabahong lansangan....
halu-halong mukha ang iyong masisilayan...

hay! buhay nga naman...

simple lang naman ang buhay...pero amfness na mga tao yan!!! pinapahirapan mashado ang kanilang mga sarili....

mabait?? aku mabait!?! parang iba yata ang kanilang pagkakakilala....

minsan naiisip ko, kung marunong nga akung mag-isip....
na kung ang lahat ng tao mabait, parang korny no?!

sana lang talaga mejo madali lang ang buhay...well, madali naman talaga eh!
pasaway lang talaga mga tao sa mundo kaya ganyan nahihirapan sila...
i mean, tayo...! kasama ba aku? tao ba aku?? halimaw na nakatago sa kasuluk-sulukan ng anino ng mundong ibabaw...

hay! anf naman... -_-

hey jelousy by gin blossoms

2005-05-07T16:38:00.000-07:00

Tell me do you think it'd be all right
If I could just crash here tonight
You can see I'm in no shape for driving
And anyway I've got no place to go
And you know it might not be that bad
You were the best I'd ever had
If I hadn't blown the whole thing years ago
I might not be alone
* la lang...i just like the song... T_T

Tomorrow we can drive around this town
And let the cops chase us around
The past is gone but something might be found
To take its place.... Hey Jealousy
And you can trust me not to think
And not to sleep around

If you don't expect too much from me
You might not be let down
Cause all I really want is to be with you
Feeling like I matter too
If I hadn't blown the whole thing years ago
I might be here with you

if only life was like an RPG GAME...

2005-04-30T16:45:00.000-07:00

imagine...
paggising mo sa umaga...ligo...kain ng almusal...pasok sa trabaho o eskuwela...habang naglalakad, nakakasalamuha mo ang iba't ibang tao...iba minsan makakaaway mo pa! iba naman eh bibigyan ka ng mga gamit...sabihin nating bumili ka ng bagong item...tuloy ang iyong pakikipagsapalaran...sa eskuwela, nakapulot ka ng bagong item, isang P300 worth na load!!! ayos! ^_^ then pag-uwi mo, nakasabay mo ang isang kauri mo...simple pero malakas...naisipan mong makasama siya sa iyong party...hehe! siyempre sumama siya...at kayo'y naglakbay na magkasama ng buong araw, ng di inaaasahan, may monster na umatake sa inyo...waa!!! low HP ka na at walang pang-heal!! buti na lang ang galing ng kasama mo at may heal pala siya... ^_^ tuloy ang pakikipagsapalaran....
kaso tinatamad ka na maglaro...auto-save...press enter to continue...
save game? click "yes"...
eh sa totoong buhay?! sa tingin mo bang sa bawat araw na feeling mo tinatamad ka na eh pwede mo na lang i-exit o di kaya naman sumuko at i-load sa last saving point na gusto mo? aba! ang buhay natin ay walang CHEATS na pwede nating gamitin everytime na nahihirapan tayo...pero di naman ibig sabihin ay tayo na lamang mag-isa! kahit na sa tunay na buhay o sa laro, kelangan natin ng mga karamay sa pagtahak natin sa daan patungo sa kinabukasan...mahirap ang daan, kaya may mga nakakasalamuha tayo sa daan...para meroon tayong karamay sa hirap at ginhawa...
GAME OVER...you loose!

malaysian, japanese, or french??? O_o yuri ba itu!?!

2005-04-30T09:52:00.000-07:00

[the dilemma of having split personalities...]

the japanese gurl...
she's was my classmate back then..she's pretty, smart, snob and a little bitchy! any guy would fall for her cute charms and gorgeous smile...i like to tease her before...and people often tease me over her because rumors had it, she has a crush on me...
why me? an average looking person..not to mention A GURL JUST LIKE HER!!!!! i mean, yeah, sure! i had a gurl friend before...but not like im gonna commit the same mistake again...

the malaysian gurl...
waa! why is she here?! maybe it's because i like her...who wouldn't? she's the kind of gurl who's adventurous, cunning and witty! we get along well...and she's really sweet and fun to be with...and with her cute looks and stunning charms, hay! if i were a guy, i'd really ask her out...

the french gurl...
ah! yes, mademoiselle! she's a real brain-child...i like to talk with her...you can really have a good conversation with her...and she can never bore you! and she's really enthusiastic about things...the only thing i don't like in her, she likes to kiss people... O_o

why can't be just a normal kid??? it's not like i want one of them to be my gurlfriend or anything...but i'm really shy because i don't knwo how to talk to them without ending up getting hurt or someone getting hurt...i dunno...maybe i'll ask my master...then he'd really smack me on the head and probably will say,"stop this stupid nonsense!!!" ahhh, nevermind.......

wrath of the koala bear and the malaysian gurl...

2005-04-26T14:09:00.000-07:00

waa!!! T_T

ang atsi ko galit sakin...kc di nya nagugustuhan ung mga nangyayari sakin lately...
she said she doesn't like it one bit...

and i quote: "beh, you never fail to remind me ur above average IQ.. and you always give me a mental and psychic beating when we see each other.. how come your like this with your master?" -atsi

waa!! totoo ba un??? O_o
parang i can't belive the thing she was saying... what was it that people tend to see me as a smart kid, but whenever with my master, im dumber than the dumbest mule?! is it because he's really that smart? or is it because i just don't want him to see me like that?

there are just things in life that we can't accept...
acceptance is such a big word...
people may see each other but can they really tolerate each other's company? what is it that people see?

perfection is one thing...being a god is another thing! but only God can be perfect!
still, we can reach for perfection, rather, reach to be perfect but still can never be...

with what i see with his significant other...she seems pretty well perfect for me...
she's pretty, rich, i dunno if she's smart but she seems to be one...
argh! what am i saying!? am i supposed to feel pitty for myself?!

waa!!! teka nga muna!? bakit ba eto sinasabi ko??

eniweiz, let's go to another topic...

i'm delighted nga pala...kc the other day, ms. nassha, a good gurlfriend of mine texted me...it's been a long time since we saw each other...

she's malaysian, and really sweet... ^_^
i kinda like her for her good attitude and pleasing personality...
i hope i could see her soon....and so with my master too!
meet nga pala kame mamaya...let's hope i won't piss him off this time! O_o

i'll keep you posted! ja ne! ^_^

sabado nights....

2005-04-25T11:56:00.000-07:00

ahehehe!!! last saturday, i took the night shift here sa shop...
kinda tiring....

thankfully, my future son-in-law and my master was with me the whole time....

disturbed_angel: wha?! c master cnamahan ka nung sabado???
lucid_nightmare: yup! ^_^

as i was saying...
my master was soo bait and soo handsome that time....
^_^ hehe! *blush*

makes me want to...uh, never mind.... O_o *sweatdrop*

hay! basta, it was the best night i had! eventhough i haven't got any sleep, it was oki...

lucid_nightmare: ang cute ma2log ng master koh!!!! ^_^
disturbed_angel: yah! i agree!

STATUS: neutral

BACKGROUND MUSIC: tunog DotA...'nuf said.... -_-

kawawa naman master ko!!! T_T

2005-04-21T23:43:00.000-07:00

waa!!!! T_T
ung master ko texted me....he said he was walking on the high way...no car, no money and he hasn't even eaten yet!! waa! kawawa naman siya...kasi naman inuna pa niya ung magic cards niya!

bakit ba naman kasi of all the days pa na mawawalan aku ng pera, ngaun pa!
then i was really on my feet kahit na alam kong wala naman aku magagawa mashado...
i went on and rode a jeepney...
i was about to ask him his exact location...

he replied: "joke lang un!..."

waa!! alam mo un! it scared the hell out of me!

what if:

1. masagasaan cya ng isang mayaman at nawalan cya ng malay..tapos nagka-amnesia cya at ung kumuha sa kanya na gurl eh mayaman at nagkagus2han cla?!

2. kidnapin cya ng mga masasamang loob

3. hold-up???

4. biglang nawalan cya ng malay sa gitna ng kalye at doon dinampot cya ng mga panget na bakla and for GOD only knows kung anu ang gagawin nila sa master ko!!!! T_T

di ko alam ang gagawin ko....
pero, joke lang pala....

in another way, thank God! joke lang pala.........

reminiscin' the old days....

2005-04-20T22:42:00.000-07:00

hay! i'm already home na... i've been thinking about "hideki" lately...
di na kami nag-uusap...and to think parang di maganda ang last talk namin...
i feel sorry for him...anu na kaya ginagawa niya ngaun??? i hope he's doing just fine...

as i was reading the previous blogs i made, i remembered my 'niichan jef!
i have 7 brothers eh! namely:

1. jef a.k.a. "jepi-loo"
2. alvin a.k.a. "lee-ciao"
3. jb a.k.a. "bitoy"
4. gb a.k.a. "botoribs"
5. alberto a.k.a. "obet"
6. philip a.k.a. "flip-you're love..."
7. derick a.k.a. "kcired"

si kuya flip at kuya derick, naging bro ko cla lately lang...classmates kme eh!eh ang bait bait nila sakin...ayun!

then going back...miss ko na mga kuya at VIAS family...
cla inay martha, tito ciao marco... cla dianne, mga kuya ko.....
hay! reminiscing the old days seemed awkward to me....

hirap ng ganito....

oh, gosh! my master sent a message for me!!! ureshii!!! ^_^
i'm happy again! kahit talo sa DotA, mag-message lang cya parang nanalo na si MEDUSA!!!

disturbed_angel: si MEDUSA ng favorite character ni kiku sa DotA...kasi may mana sheild... -_-
lucid_nightmare: amf naman eh! binubuking mo aku....
disturbed_angel: ahehehehe!! totoo naman di ba??
lucid_nightmare: T_T *sniff

ay nyaku! away na naman kau dalawa jan!
mejo kinakausap ko sarili ko...

*wag po kaung maguguluhan sa mga nagsasakita d2...tip:
kapag PURPLE, si kiku un...
kapag RED, si airee un...
kapag ORANGE, si shobits po un!!!!!
gets nyo po?? ^_^

shobits: eh panu ung green??? cnu ka ba???
disturbed_angel: oo nga! cnu ka ba???
lucid-nightmare: T_T *sniff
green: ako ang iyong konsiyensya!!!! ^_^
disturbed_angel: huh?
shobits: meron ka pala nun krizzie?? O_o
lucid_nightmare: waa! T_T

~end

DotA Allstars...

2005-04-20T03:16:00.000-07:00

ahehehe!!!
ang tigas ng mukha ko! i asked carlo to play DotA...one-on-one....
sobra! ang lakas ng loob ko. parang nag-suicide na din aku...
hay! maybe i'll just ask someone to play tapos bayaran ko siya para magpatalo!
muwahahaha!!! ^_^

disturbed_angel: oo nga! tigas talaga ng mukha mo! ahihihihihihi!!! O_o
lucid_nightmare: waa! T_T you're mean!
disturbed_angel: hay naku! asa ka pa! patulong ka na lang sa master mo!!!
lucid_nightmare: T_T

ah! im happy nga pala! kasi i saw my blog and i have 1 comment! i i never imagined that it would be my niichan jef! waa! miss ko na siya!!! kasi it's been a long time since we've seen each other...
i'm really happy na nagparamdam siya...
sana oki lang siya....
eniweiz, i've got to go home na...my mom's a bit furious na! kasi i went home late again last night...well, araw-araw naman eh! ^_^
maybe later na lang uli! ja ne!!!!

STATUS: neutral
BACKGROUND MUSIC: KLSP by Sponge Cola

im sOoOoOo hungry!!!!

2005-04-19T16:59:00.000-07:00

waa! O_o

gugu2um na aku.... tagal naman ng papalit sakin...
wish ko lang naman...la magawa....
kinakarir ang BLOG!!! muwahahahahaah!!! ack!
*ubo*

current status: lethargic -_-
hunger: gu2m na to the max!

*to feed kiku, press >

ahehehe!!!! ^_^

what the..?! /ack

2005-04-19T11:13:00.000-07:00

lucid_nightmare: waa!!!
disturbed_angel: doshita no kiku-chan???
lucid_nightmare: nande mo nai... T_T
disturbed_angel: eh?!

*la lang akong magawa...masisiraan na aku ng bait d2!!! O_o
kinakausap ko sarili ko.... T_T
masama na ito.....

actually, i haven't received any message from my master...usually he would reply back to my message....probably he's just too busy to even reply to my message...
oh, well...i guess maybe i'll send him another message later....

my first time... ^_^

2005-04-18T19:05:00.000-07:00

wow! never though that doing this was easy as a pie!!! ahehehe!

eniweiz, i've been thinking lately whether what i should do about this...
it's already 10:08 am and i'm at work. thinking what he was doing...

something about myself:
i have a master...i "LIKE" my master...uh, er, well... some sort like that! ^_^
but he likes someone else... i guess being with me isn't a trip to wonderland...

ok...that's just about it...
probably i'll update you guys next time.... ja minna-san!